I don't know what I'm feeling right now. I thought when Brian got in the shower with me, his shadow... For a second I saw Hobbs, right before he hit me.

Gus is driving Brian crazy and I'm caught between them. Brian wants him to stay safe, his little boy. Gus is pushing.

Can Jonas really put off fucking someone for years? Brian's doubtful.

What a fucking mess!

Thanks sexy_pumpkin and sjmpets for thinking of me on my birthday. Brian says he didn't forget, and I'm giving him the benefit of the doubt. I actually don't know if he did or not.

Shit, I'm not sure what I got myself into, coming back.

Fawn is still acting pissy, Brian got rid of Keith but he's still around, which makes me uneasy--he definitely wants Brian to fuck him, he's not subtle about it--and Gus!!!

Brian's freaking.

I'm caught between them.

Brian and I are taking a break now until Monday morning.

We want you to know why, so go here so you will be up to date.

JT

I'm so scared.

My daughter Nicki seems to like cock.

So Brian and I will be taking the family circus with us, but before that it's monks, Mel/Fawn and BDSM.

Good thing I'm versatile, I guess.

I couldn't think of a way to tell Brian, but I am wondering if Mel wanted to lose Fawn.

I'm not cut out for this being a father shit.

But I just had to take off on my own.

I know he has his own issues with worrying what kind of father he'll be.

Well, so do I.

brian?

This pregnancy, the mother, not what we wanted. And...we're struggling not to feel that way about an innocent baby.

Please drop by Brian's LJ if you think of anything to say because I'm concerned about him.

Er, I mean, not us but...

Shit, we may be starting out the New Year with more than we thought.

Brian's freaking.

It's a cliche, but it feels as if the sun came out.

In NYC.

Thanks to rapunzel50 for the mistletoe.

Brian's really unhappy about me going away for three weeks after Christmas.

Now I hear that you guys are concerned also.

Why do I find it irritating to see Michael leaning so much on Brian? I know there's nothing between them. I know that.

I didn't tell Brian, but I was fucking terrified last night that Lindsay--

Now Gus is pale, bandaged, bruised. Fragile in his bed.

New place.

I We do think of you sometimes...

I'm a fucking nervous wreck!

I just woke up.

Brian made a gift of tonight, taking such gentle care of me after Craig...

So I hear from him that maybe you want to hear from us while we are on honeymoon...